I always wonder, why am I so scared to tell the truth even to those whom I trust?

Is it because I don’t want them to resent me? Is it because I don’t want them to think that I actually don’t care about them?

Honestly, I’m being selfish. I always think of myself and never more. I only wished to be kind yet I can’t even pull it off. It’s hard to even speak about it. When I try to speak about my problems, their way of words isn’t that of a comfort but more like, they are trying their very hardest to comfort me—and I really really appreciate that. But It just doesn’t really help me. I just really think I’m so weird and mentally unstable to the point I can’t even be myself sometimes when I have something thinking about. It ticks me off how I can just feel this way with the people I trust.

How tiring…